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Right, so it’s almost 4 am when I’m typing this, and if you didn’t know already... It’s June. Yay. God, I bet my outsider level would increase four-fold if I somehow was still in school right now. All of those people would be celebrating it, and then there’s just me. The invisible, mostly tired, autistic straight girl. So, I got NyQuil the other day, and it supposedly gives some people weird dreams? I’m chill if I get weird dreams. I rarely have those, and weird dreams are things that are begging to be talked about. Ugh, let’s try to ignore those annoyingly-proud people. Anyways, I just thought of a school building I saw in a video once, and I thought, “Man, what if I randomly started school in the middle of the school year?” I mean, as long as my motivation tank runs out at the end of the school year, I’d also be chill with that. That does make me wonder... If some dude were to invite me to a dance or a senior prom, would he be legitimate or just kidding/trying to be nice? (the last two are the same thing.) And also... I wonder how my classmates from 5th grade are doing, especially the ones who are going to the school closer to my house. Wonder if they still acknowledge that I exist as well. Just a thought. Keep on dreaming. 6-1-19🌟

So, today was kinda underwhelming, yet it was kinda satisfactory at the same time. I didn’t get blatantly upset at something, so there’s that. But, anyways. Here’s a thought: actually being in a group of friends. That would be freaking magical. Imagine showing them memes or YouTube videos in a group chat or going to Disneyland with them. It’s magical, as much as it’s a total pipe dream. Like, imagine if they supported me as much as they (as in his friends) did when another good friend of his lost his phone somewhere at Atlanta a couple of weeks ago. Imagine... Ooh, imagine going to the movies or to the store/mall with a group of friends! Or watching some god-awful animated movie like Joshua and the Promised Land, or something like Monty Python’s Flying Circus, and reacting to all of the “what the hell?” moments. Imagine going to a convention to see Thrown Controllers with a group of friends!!! Or, imagine someone in the group drawing all of us in one of those Draw the Squad things. Buuut, imagine someone else having the same amount of angelic generosity as HIM!! Ahhh, that would be a dream come true!!! Imagine if they actually helped me conquer my dream of meeting him, and... wow... I just want a group of friends who will accept me for being immensely shy and do all of those other things!!! But, for now, it’s only a dream, and maybe some romanticism. I’m praying that this’ll come true one day. Please, oh please, let this come true. Keep on dreaming. 6-2-19🌟(imagine being woken up by a good morning text in a group chat...)

So, I thought of something while writing up yesterday’s thing: How did those first conversations go between him and his good friend? Like, what were the first things said between the two? I would kill to hear that story. Kinda reminds me of that one fanfic I read one day. Anyways, E3 is going to be in 8 days. Holy crap. I gotta type out my announcement wishlist the day before. Anyways, what if I started school later this year and some group adopted me unexpectedly? Like, some angelic group of kids decided that me, the autistic outsider nobody, was going to make a worthwhile friend! What?! Chances are, that I wouldn’t even say a word! Despite all that, it would be a dream come true. Anyways, I bet his next Let’s Play is going to take even more forever because of E3 and also because his editing stuff is acting up. But, I do wonder what it is gonna be... I also can’t wait until that week when I have 5-6 let’s plays to watch in a single day. It’s gonna be great. Keep on dreaming. 6-3-19🌟(I wonder if anything life-changing is gonna happen before 2020. But, 2020 doesn’t feel like a real year.)

So, I had this thought of reading fanfiction all day for some reason. Like, the fanfic I mentioned last time was in my mind a lot. There’s something magical about the first conversations between very good friends, like, impossibly good friends. Sure, they’re opposites, but brotherly at the same time. Ooh, y’know what other story I’d kill for? A time where one blatantly cared for the other. Like, genuinely worried. Y’know, I never pointed it out, but his recent EarthBound let’s play is one of the most personal things ever, like... He mentions his dad, the kid he once knew in 9th grade, him being on the spectrum... If I find a guy who gets that personal with me, I think I’d better call him my soulmate, and marry him, because, wow... Anyways, I’m kinda excited for tomorrow, we’ve got the Pokémon Sword and Shield direct, (which I’m gonna be asleep during) and three let’s play episodes to watch. Holy crap. Keep on Dreaming. 6-4-19🌟 (imagine if I was in a group of friends, and one of them had a crush on me or vice-versa...)

So, I just continued playing Pokémon Moon. I did so for several hours. Which kinda makes me wanna get the new Pokémon game when it comes out in November. Anyways, seeing E3 live (either in LA or even at the World of Nintendo store in New York City) must be spectacular. I mean, there’s all the other people watching with you, which has gotta be full of this contagious excitement. Like, if something like E3 doesn’t have that, you’re doing it horribly wrong. Anyways, about that Pokémon direct... I didn’t watch the entire thing, but I did watch the trailer for it and... Holy crap. The song that played during it grabbed my entire attention from the actual trailer. I mean, the region where the game takes place is inspired by the U.K., why wouldn’t it be? Hands down, the greatest trailer song since Nasty Majesty. And honestly, kicks Lifelight out of the water. Like, right out. Anyways, yesterday’s Colosseum segment was the Splatoon one, which I almost considered watching. Then I remembered every single thing that bothered me in the first place. Like, nevermind. Man, I’m looking forward to E3. It’s gonna be great as per usual. Hmm, yeah, I’m pretty tired and I can’t really think anymore. Keep on dreaming. 6-5-19 🌟 (are any of the E3 trailers going to produce a song that’s even more hype? I wonder...)

So, let’s talk about music. Right now, I’m listening to a song from a crappy video game that doesn’t deserve the right to have this good a soundtrack. But, the one I’m listening to is unexpectedly good. Like, it’s for some beach scenery and the piano and guitar in it is just amazing. Like, I don’t think that the person who composed the soundtrack didn’t know how crappy the actual game is. Anyways, another song from a video game (a good video game) I wanna talk about is Entropical from Splatoon 2. I’m not really quite fond of it, to be honest with you. I dunno why. (I was expecting Hightide Era to be the face of the 4.0 trailer, but shhhh) But, Diss-pair came along with Seasick and everything is better. Seasick does remind me of last October, like, a lot. I remember standing outside the Physics classroom and thinking how odd it was for someone like me listening to a song with heavy metal vibes. Another trailer theme I wanna talk about is Lifelight. Lifelight is held in the same esteem as Entropical. Everyone seems to love it and then there’s me, who thinks it’s meh. (I can’t get my friend’s words out of my head... I kinda miss her. Weird.) Y’know, I feel like I’m really like him in a lot of ways. I just re-read that post someone made around the same time his recent EarthBound Let’s Play was announced. Let me quote a part of it that stuck in my mind: “Working hard and sticking with it has led him to connect with the ones he’s really needed all along.” Like, I really aspire to do something like that. It reminds me of how he was all shy and insecure he was at the very beginning. Well, I’m currently like that, duh. But, knowing how he is currently makes me want to find the one thing that would lead me into that. A small community without much conflict, and a group of people who support the ever-living daylight out of each other. I yearn to find people like that. Kinda like how I had the idea to move in with a really good (and currently imaginary) group of friends like the ones I’ve recently dreamed of. The ones sent from Heaven, including a sweet Aries prince who wholeheartedly understands me. Maybe I do belong with them. I dream of the day that they’ll actually welcome and know me. I yearn for the day I’m able to hold a conversation with him. Please let my dreams come true. (That relationship between him and his good friend is the holy grail of relationship goals...) Keep on dreaming. 6-6-19🌟 (will she remember me? Does she? I can’t wait until someone tells me about their day and that they like and care for me... it would be like a dream come true...)

Y’know, today was pretty great. When I woke up, there was thunder. What was greater than that was he finally announced his new Let’s Play!!! It’s an RPG that I don’t know anything about. It supposedly has an amazing soundtrack, but we’ll see. God, I can’t wait to hear his voice on a daily basis. I’m hoping that tomorrow will be just as great. Maybe we’ll go to Starbucks and/or Barnes and Noble. Who knows? Hahah, yeah. I can’t think of anything. 6-7-19🌟 (4 more days until E3!! I was just reminded of what I thought earlier today: if you told me that it was actually November right now, I'd believe you. I dunno why, but today felt like it. Probably was the weather. I can't get the Pokémon trailer song out of my mind. It was on a commercial and I didn't skip it just because of that song. That group of friends idea still seems kinda nice. A couple of things about his announcement... He said something that ended with "for something completely different" and my mind immediately thought of Monty Python. Also, this is pretty well timed because, yesterday, I finished a live stream I never finished when it wasn't live, and felt kinda empty and sad when I did. Oh, that trailer song.. Is it bad that I don't have a female role model or listen to any female artists?)

(just can’t get that song out of my head...) Okay. So, today was interesting. It’s the Saturday before E3 and something has already been announced, and it has me s h o o k e t h. A little more than a month from now, the final Splatfest is going to take place. Like, yeah. I expected that. BUT. It’s the theme that has me s h o o k e t h. Chaos vs. Order. Like, what the hell is going on here? It seems like team Chaos is getting more popular, so I’m going to do what I normally do and choose team Order. May the least popular team win. Anyways, back to that trailer theme. I love it so much. It’s this beautiful combination of orchestra, celtic, and rock. I’ve had it stuck in my head since I first heard it. It’s that good. Like, if you told me that it was from Pokémon, I wouldn’t believe you. Like, this is from the same game franchise that has the freaking Hiker theme. (but it also has songs like the Lavender Town theme, so...) Anyways, there were two interesting videos that came out today. An Unraveled video about E3 presentations (which I’m already planning to watch the day before E3) and the first episode of his new RPG let’s play which is interesting so far. (and is 44 minutes long) Hhhhh, the final Splatfest is totally plot-influencing and I’m freaking out!! I can’t wait to see what these next three days bring! Keep on dreaming. 6-8-19 🌟 (My mom said that I was gonna be in school when Pokémon Sword and Shield comes out in November... Like that’s gonna happen. Unless, by some miracle I’m actually able to, but still. God, my favorite part of that song has to be with that beat and all the clapping. I love it so much, it’s like hearing We Will Rock You at a sports game.)

So, today was boring. Boring, boring, boring. Perhaps life is saving the interesting parts for these next two days. Yeah, that’s what it’s doing. Hopefully he’ll be uploading the Splatoon video I was hyped for tomorrow. Yeah, lots of videos are gonna be uploaded tomorrow, I think. Like, as in videos I actually plan on watching. (hmmm, Penny Lane just started playing in my mind...) Anyways, I wanna make my own little slide presentation on something. (splatoon, maybe?) I went through the PowerPoint tag on Tumblr and now I wanna make my own. Anyways, It’s odd to me that there’s no girl or woman I look up to. Every girl has one, but I don’t. Screw gender roles. That’s why. So what I don’t like the singing voices of any mainstream female artists? Screw mainstream music! The better music are the ones you discover by yourself, not the world’s largest demographic! Enough about that. (yeah, I should make that...) Keep on dreaming. 6-9-19 🌟

I can’t believe that E3 is in 7 hours from now. Like, tomorrow’s the day and I’m psyched. Anyways, I thought of something earlier. What if companies did the same thing for Autistic pride month like how they’re currently doing that thing for Pride Month? Like, begone brand. No one wants to see your corporate face ever again. Anyways, dear god, the idea of going back to the same school. It’s like watching the Colosseum on steroids. Except that there’s a chance that someone can pop up and kill you. And on top of that, you have nausea, anxiety, paranoia, and stress on the side! Why?! Just imagine having your period in the middle of class! Long story short, returning to school is a no from me. I can’t believe it. The only thing separating me and E3 is sleep. Holy crap. I’m not going to type up that wish list and instead start watching it clean. No expectations. Just a 40-something minute direct chock-full of announcements and gameplay. No predictions. That’s the more exciting way to watch any direct. Keep on dreaming. 6-10-19🌟

So, I’d describe this direct like I described February’s direct. A couple surprises, but mostly disappointing. This is the third year that I hoped for a new Mario Kart and a new Pikmin! But, there is Animal Crossing. Releasing on an already awkward date. March 20th. Shouldn’t I be on vacation around that time, if my mom ignores the fact that I’ll definitely not be in school around that time? I just hope that my mom will even get the game for me... Please let the rest of my Pikmin and Mario Kart dreams come true in a direct like last September’s direct did... Please let this year have a legitimately good direct. Unless the rest of them were all last year... (It’s much later...) Y’know, it just dawned upon me that I don’t have a singular healthy relationship. I don’t really wanna rant too hard, but it’d be nice if I did... Anyways, I was watching videos filmed in real-life Paris, and I kinda wish I could go. Mostly to see the Coronation of Napoleon, but I still wanna go. (hmm, I was gonna say that the only thing separating me and going there is a single screen, but there’s way more than a single screen...) Anyways, I just read how someone’s mother knew him (not him, but him) as “that guy” and it makes me wish that my mom knew him in a positive way. I wish my mom was in a positive relationship with me. Like, a blatantly positive one. Anyways, I was watching gameplay of the new Animal Crossing, where I was pleasantly reminded that one of the main people who made Splatoon also is one of the main people for Animal Crossing. I think. Anyway, Summer is coming soon. Shouldn’t something interesting happen near the start like these last two years, or...? Yeah, we’ll see. Keep on dreaming. 6-11-19🌟

So, I was working on my little Splat-band slide thingy and now it's suddenly 4 am. Dammit. I had more fun working on that than any other slide thingy I made for school. Everything's more fun when it's not for school. Anyways, I was watching the Nintendo NYC reaction for this year's E3, and I gotta say... They were the complete opposite of how I reacted, which was minorly disappointed silence. Like, while I was sitting there waiting for Pikmin, everyone was freaking out. I dream of the day when I react to a new Mario Kart, Pikmin, hell, even Splatoon, how they reacted to Banjo-Kazooie being in Smash, or to the new Breath of the Wild sequel announcement. Hugging, screaming, possibly crying. I yearn for that as much (aw, I missed 4:20) as I yearn for a healthy relationship or an angelic, godly group of friends. I at least want a trailer theme that goes hard. Please. Pretty please. Keep on dreaming. 6-12-19🌟

So, (what was I gonna talk about? right.) Last night I was watching this video with 00’s kids’ songs and this particular one started playing, and I was like... “where have I heard this before?” So, I assumed that it was a vine, then I looked up the name of the song, and added “vine”, which became fruitless. I thought about it a little more, and then I realized that it was from that one vlog where him and his friends go to the Adult Swim place and have a karaoke session over there. It was the last thing I thought of, since I only remembered Mr. Blue Sky, 500 Miles, and Bohemian Rhapsody. (which I still need to see) Speaking of him, it’s odd to me that he’s the only one who doesn’t have his own group of friends outside that main group, like the other two does. Yeah, there’s... those two, but they’ve been guests in collabs, and are even in the freaking Colosseum, so I don’t really count them. (maybe I do have a chance...) Anyways, I just can’t stop thinking of this one card that my brother showed me. It’s the absolutely beautiful Alolan Exeggutor and Rowlet Tag Team card. I can’t keep my mind off it, it’s like a match made in heaven... Anyways, I saw a post of screenshots of someone having a conversation with their mom over texting about Animal Crossing, and I thought... Man, wouldn’t it be nice if I could talk about Pokémon or Splatoon with my mom like they did? Kinda reminds me how one of his friends sometimes lets her mom co-commentate and play along with her. I wish I could do that. (it’s 4:20, man) Yeah, I need to sleep. Keep on dreaming. 6-14-19🌟

Today was boring. Indubitably boring. But, I did think of something. How wonderful an airy and quiet classroom is around this time of year and what it would be like going to school actually knowing that there’s someone that actually acknowledges your existence and speaks to you. Like, people like that exist? Where? It reminds me how I was watching this documentary, and I started to think about how odd it was that people seemed to have perfectly fine school days. Like, no physical or mental exhaustion slowed you down during the day? None of it? Weird. Oh, oh right! I was listening to this interview with him and it was mentioned that he met one of his current friends at age 15. My age. Could that happen to me as well, please? Pretty please? I have a stuffy nose, which is a good reason to stop here. Tomorrow seems promising, though. Keep on dreaming. 6-16-19🌟

So, last night was one of the most surreal nights I’ve had. So. I go to sleep earlier than usual because sickness. Suddenly, I wake up and it’s about 4-5 in the morning. I have a headache and a stuffy nose, I’m having weird dreams, and I’m sweating buckets. I go do a couple of things, and now I’m downstairs at around 6. I take a nap, and now it’s about 7. I go back upstairs, and I go back to sleep for the second time, in which I wake up around 4 in the afternoon. Uuuuugh. I was going to update this earlier, but the internet decided to commit “Mr. Stark, I don’t feel so good.” Come on, internet, you can do better than that. I’d comment on the day before, but I don’t remember any of it. I do remember that I was also sick that day, as well. Please let tomorrow be interesting. Keep on Dreaming. 6-18-19🌟

So, today was painfully normal, other than the fact that I started watching his video of the day at 11pm. It was your regular episode, other than how he announced how this is a multi-timeline thing in a way that’s straight outta the Twilight Zone, without the catchy music. Like, this game has multiple endings, I get it. Anyways, we’re apparently seeing Toy Story 4 tomorrow. I don’t really like watching movies the day they premier, bar the reactions. But, I prefer those reactions during a movie like Star Wars. Also, the way we’re seeing it is rather odd. We’re seeing it in a mall we haven’t been to in several years. I mean, it has crossed my mind recently. But why are we seeing it there? Is there something important over there, a specific reason, or what? You do know that there’s other movie theaters that are closer, right? God, I’m so nervous all of a sudden. Like, I’m all jittery. Could you stop, body? Hopefully: A.) I can have some nice >:] dreams tomorrow, since it’s the official first day of summer, and B.) I can find a certain review of the movie, so I can see if it’s worth watching. Keep on dreaming. 6-20-19🌟

So, just saw Toy Story 4. My single sentence review: Visually beautiful, but mostly underwhelming. Despite that, a thought that I had that lingered in the theater was: Man, I really wish I could binge-watch movies in a movie theater. Imagine seeing Spirited Away on a huge screen! I just wanna watch more movies in the theater, man. I hope this weekend isn’t underwhelming as per usual. Anyways, looks like the Colosseum is done uploading. Thank god. I’m honestly excited to see what the next collab is. Hopefully it’s the one with the person he met at 15. Keep on dreaming. 6-21-19🌟(Got a woomy amiibo today!)

Good morning, it’s time for the 5 am Predicament. Today on The 5 AM Predicament, I had the feeling of stopping watching his current series because... I just don’t find the game that he’s playing to be all that interesting. Which is odd because, apparently, a lot of people absolutely adore it. Well, it looks like it’s not my cup of tea. I bet I’d get a ton of hate if I said that somewhere. Like if I were to say that Halloween isn’t that great of a holiday, Autumn isn’t that great of a season, or most older video game music isn’t that great. Haha. Ha... Anyways, yeah, I’m still sick. I wish I wasn’t. Please let the next collab start uploading this week. Speaking of those guys, I remember one of them mentioning how several people missed the solo videos during the colosseum. Honestly, SAME. Perhaps they experienced the same exhaustion I did. Focusing on a billion things happening at once is tough mental work, y’know. Speaking of the colosseum, I keep thinking of the sketches that played during it lately, dunno why. Like, some of them take place in the house, at the beach, at Costco, at the mall, in the car... Like, I’ve only seen all of them only once, why am I thinking about them a lot? Well, regardless of whether I’m mentally able to handle next year’s, I sincerely hope that there’s new sketches. It’s the only part of the colosseum I can handle, and the one I can actually watch in one sitting. Yeah, I need to sleep. Keep on dreaming. 6-23-19🌟

So, I watched a review on Toy Story 4, the review I was planning to watch. This one is a little more unorthodox, since it’s told in a vlog, at Target. This is great, and it’s already re-watchable material. But what stuck out the most to me was not the review itself, but what was after. It was a re-cap of a convention that took place last saturday. (was I doing something last saturday, other than being sick? Nope.) One of the pictures shown during the recap was of the reviewer, and him. Which is like, the most surreal thing ever. Sometimes, honestly, I forget that the man is legendary, mostly because he’s the most awkward and humble person I know. Oooh, that’s hella attractive. Humbleness and an unbearable amount of kindness in one guy. (4:20! Hell yeah!) I need to get me some of that. It’s... tantalizing. Add understanding to the mix and you’ve got the holy trinity of crush personality traits! Yeah! Like, anyways... I’m unable to catch up to any of my Let’s Play series. Is it because of sleep? Because of sickness? Who knows. (ever change your sudden need for mac and cheese to a sudden need for scrambled eggs? yeah...) Keep on dreaming. 6-24-19🌟(seaside rendezvous has been stuck in my head constantly as of late.)

I just had the most unpleasant stomach-ache ever. It was unpleasant as the actual spelling of stomach. Jeez. It just looks weird and it’s overall unpleasant. Anyways. I just heard that they’re adding the original Splatfest themes (Ink Me Up and Now or Never!) in the final Splatfest. Nice. Speaking of the Final Splatfest, I sure hope the same thing is going to happen to me this time. That wack week when I went on vacation the same week, forcing me to pull off an all-nighter for the final splatfest. Like, I wanna go to Seattle without worrying about my team losing, dammit. I wonder how the announcement is gonna play out. That’s gotta be worrying, announcing that the world around you is about to have a war about the state of the area you live in. God, it’s been an unorthodox week. I just keep getting sick. This isn’t the way to start Summer, man. July 4th is next week and I can’t even locate my ear-plugs. Ughhh. Anyways, I just wanna point out that I fully woke up at 5 in the e v e n i n g. I don’t know how to feel about that. I just want something to happen that doesn’t include making me sick, to be honest. Something amazing, I guess. Keep on dreaming. 6-25-19🌟 (god, it’s odd to not be interested in the game he’s playing. It’s an unfamiliar RPG and it’s just so boring, man. Please don’t get personal without me. But, do you know what's not boring? An overly nice man. Magical...)

So, earlier today, there was a freaking thunder storm, and it was GREAT!! I saw numeral lightning bolts strike in the sky, and it was one of the greatest things that happened during the entirety of this month. Dare I say that it was greater than the E3 direct. Anyways, I’m kinda in the mood for spilling some tea. At the colosseum, there’s this one girl who does vocal covers of video game songs that have English lyrics, and everyone likes her covers. Problem is that she’s cutesy, like that annoying kind of cutesy. (since when was it 5 am??) Also, her speaking and singing voices are a little too high-pitched for my liking. Perhaps it’s adding to the annoying-cute facade. There’s a fine line between legit-cute and annoying-cute. Anyways, my own piping-hot tea-take is that she’s not all that great. Yeah, there’s the tea. The piping hot tea and the piping hot take. Wonder if anyone else feels the same. (jesus christ! I just realized how bright it is outside) She must have one of those signs that completely contradicts the likings of my Aquarius self. The rest of the colosseum people must be very shocked that I feel that way. Despite the chances of being with them are pretty low, I’ll just keep this as my little secret. Haha, yes. I love little secrets. The idea of keeping secrets seems so cool. It’s not as magical, like the ones I dream to successfully write about, but it is pretty scandalous. Me? Not liking the oh-so-cutesy singer girl? GASP!! Anyways, to-do list: actually try to write that one story with that one character. You know the one. It’s literally 6 in the morning. Keep on dreaming. 6-26-19🌟(finally got into Pokémon Go!)

Good morning. Today on The 5 am Predicament, I criticize a movie that I’m most likely not gonna see: Yesterday. Like, if you’re gonna make a movie about one of the most legendary, inventive bands in the history of the entire world, shouldn’t it be about the band themselves? Not only that, but freaking Ed Sheeran’s in it?? I kind of hope that a particular someone just riffs on it, like his usual “Painfully Average” review. I await the day when a Bohemian Rhapsody/Rocket Man-esque biopic about The Beatles exist. Anyways... there’s been an odd shortage of food, and the only thing good is freaking cake. If I don’t get some good stuff during these next three days... I dunno, man. I keep thinking about a certain character of mine, and I really wanted to write her out, for lack of a better term. I’ll get to it eventually. Please let something cool happen this weekend. Keep on dreaming. 6-27-19🌟

Good morning. It isn’t quite 5 AM, so it’s time for: The 5 AM Predicament: the 4 AM edition. Today on The 5 AM Predicament: the 4 AM edition, I realize the 4 problems of accomplishing going to a concert/musical/or any kind of stage show that requires tickets: Being too late, living too far away, having no money, and having no one to go with. (which is a problem of its own, but relevant.) Like, I yearn for the day that these problems are finally solved. Like, anyways, it’s been almost 8 days since the colosseum was done uploading. I really hope the next collab starts uploading in the next two days. Anyways, I legitimately was able to play Pokémon Go today, which resulted in me getting an Alolan Exeggutor!! Yayy!!! Now, I only need a Chansey, a Togepi, or a Togekiss. Oh, right. I wonder how September of this year is gonna play out. Like, am I actually gonna go to school? Am I actually find that legendary group of friends? Who knows? Only time will tell. (Hopefully his next project isn’t as boring as his current one. Like, I know that you really like this game, man. A lot of people do. And you really wanna portray that, man. But, I’m just so sorry that I haven’t been interested lately. I know you’re not hearing me now, but I’m just so terribly sorry. I just find it so very boring, and I can’t place it on why or how. Please understand. Sincerely, that incredibly shy girl. P.S. I love you.) Keep on dreaming. 6-28-19🌟

Y’know, I really want some cool way to escape. I want my own secret romance that only I know about. Having somewhere to drift away just sounds absolutely amazing. Anyways, let’s talk about Amino. Excluding the fact that it’s where I met... her, I really hate it. Everyone is fake and annoying, all the top posts are all the same, there’s way too much going on that’s unnecessary, I hate it. Now that I got that out, I just wanna mention that I had cute boys on the mind for several hours today. Cute, humble, and very understanding boys is a magical, tantalizing thought, everyone. I’d like to be with one some day, please. (You ever just realize how amazing a certain video game song is, while having a sudden craving for white rice? yeah...) God, July is gonna be great. At least, I hope it is. Anyways, we finally know what the next collab is, which is Kirby and the Amazing Mirror. I knew it was a Kirby game, but not the one I was thinking of. At least I know what that one October recording was of. Speaking of which, I’m anticipating the next vlog that’s related to them, or at least to him. I adore those vlogs. Especially the ones that bring out the saint of generosity in him. If only... (I just love getting to know someone like him. He’s fascinating and I get excited whenever he starts to tell a story. I wish I wasn’t bored of the game he’s currently playing...) July 2019! Let’s do this! Keep on dreaming. 6-30-19🌟(Almost forgot to mention how I got a Togepi and a shiny Alolan Exeggutor in the same day. Nice. >:])